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Aristotle would have been proud

Did you know that Socrates was a soldier?

Mike Orban is an interesting man, I have never met in person. He is a Vietnam Veteran and more over a PTSD Veteran and from what I have deduced a verified bad ass yet he would never admit to it. He is an Author and a Radio Show Host on the subject of Combat PTSD. Mike is the kind of guy that seems to have lived 10 more lives than you but even just one of his would still have more stories than yours. He dropped this nugget of Knowledge in my comments section, a place that is not fit for something of this clarity, simplicity, and overwhelming magnitude of  mind unraveling awesomeness, therefore its posted here. Read it fast, then read it again, try to connect the dots. Its a chunk of knowledge that Socrates would have dropped on some sophist punk on the steps of an Athenian Market.

I had to accept that American soldiers have gone to war (in principle) to keep the experiences of
war outside this country and away from it’s citizens. Yet, at the same time now, after being at war,
I wanted them to understand what true physical, psychological and spiritual committment war is for
the soldiers. I wanted patriotism to be real. However I saw I was caught in my own thinking. The only
way for others to understand our experiences at war was for them to have been to war and this is
precisely what we were successful at preventing (in principle). So, in our own success we had
created our own isolation. I accept this now as being a warrior and being a warrior for life, I don’t
want them to understand because I know what they’d have to go through to gain that understanding.
I don’t wish that on them and in this I take pride which helps calm my soul.

-Mike Orban

Author of ‘Souled Out, A Memoir of War and Inner Peace’

Host of Combat PTSD Exposed

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Putting it out there

B Reed, commented on his own post last night. That happens from time to time with us, we realize that we hit a nerve and its usually within ourselves. After losing our brother this week he posted this.

I am re-reading this post in a different perspective after this week…some of you guys may be feeling alone and hanging at the end of your ropes. Maybe you are without engaged leadership. Maybe you are without a close knit group of friends. Where are you? How is it affecting you? Do you have someone to talk to?

I am still angry and have a lot of mixed up thoughts about losing another Soldier, but if you think about asking yourself “Would someone be there for me if I asked them?” The answer is yes. Step back from the bottle, sc@#$ the bulls$%^, and open your frigging mouth.

“Being alone sucks. Feeling alone sucks.”

“Did things change for you when you changed locations? When you weren’t surrounded by everyone from the deployment? If anyone else ever feels alone, depressed, desperate, or just wanting to talk. Drop me a line, or post your thoughts up in here.

He posted this on What’s your 20:

This is so critical. Open your mouth, talk to someone. You don’t have to declare it to the world but you have to find someone to confide in. Someone to lean on. Don’t be stupid, don’t drink the kool-aid, talk or die. Its not a tough decision, you either heal and deal or you take your chances playing Russian roulette.

If you are having some real trouble call this number 1-800-273-TALK (8255), its a veteran suicide prevention hotline.  Nothing is worth killing yourself over, especially your freaking pride. That’s all I got roger 6 out.

Common Ground

I have heard it said many times, and quite often I have to admit that for the most part; Veterans feel more comfortable talking about things with other veterans.   Mostly it has to do with a common sense of understanding and being able to relate.   It is a basic premise for the foundation of the JollyRoger.   But, I don’t think that it is always exclusive.   For some reason it seems that veterans have always been comfortable speaking to me, even when I was a young kid.

Living in “retirement community” as I grew up in Florida, I found myself literally surrounded by many WWII veterans.   Quite often we would talk about their time in the military and time at war.   As I remember, one man had been a member of a bomber crew shot down behind occupied France.   He was able to elude the Germans and participate with the French resistance.  Mostly causing minor harassment to the Germans, until he was finally able to re-enter friendly lines.

Another WWII veterans had told me that he served as member of a bomber crew in the Pacific, and that he was one of the sister planes to Bockscar when it dropped the 2nd Atomic bomb on Japan.

Was it different for WWII veterans?  Normandy, Pearl Harbor, Guadal Canal, etc….They must have suffered their share of PTSD.   Did it make a difference how they were treated when they returned?  I wasn’t there at the time, but it seems like the public treated WWII veterans with more respect and appreciation.   How they saved the world, and made a mark on history.  It seems like this may be one things that is different between them and veterans of other wars.   I mean people have already forgotten about Iraq, before the war is even over.

As I got older I met other veterans.  One friends father was a Vietnam veteran who spoke about his nightmares when he returned and how he still checks his boots for snakes and things to this day.

Another Father and Vietnam veteran I met somehow opened up to me, and as I later found out had NEVER spoken to his wife or children.   For almost 30 years, they still never knew what he had been through.  They spoke of his anger and how he was just an asshole.  His daughter told me that his burn marks and scars were from drunk games that her father would play with his friends.   They were actually from when the bulldozer that he was operating ran over an anti-tank mine.  The first time that I met him, he was opening up to me.   He had been part of an experimental engineer unit, who would bulldoze swaths of jungle looking for enemy base camps.   When they would find one, the bulldozers would lead the attack.  They would plow through fighting positions and bury the enemy, while APCs and infantry followed behind.   He later was connected to a reunion for his unit, and found out that every single member was diagnosed with 100% disability for PTSD by the VA.

My uncle was a Marine truck driver in Desert Storm.   He went through numerous Scud attacks.  I remember seeing him hit the dirt when someone lit some firecrackers at a bonfire party after he returned.

So where do we go to speak to each other?  Online?  A Veterans Organizations?

Have anyone joined a veteran’s organization? VFW? Amvets? American legion? A student’s veterans organization?

It seemed to me that some of these organizations could already be doing what we are trying to in this group, or that they might have a lot to offer a group like this.

If you have joined one: Do you find it helpful? Do you feel better about being part of the group?

I have heard people give a stereotype or submit the perception of just a bunch of old guys sitting around drinking beer and telling war stories, but what are they really about?  How do we get more people interested and involved?

VFW?  There is even one over here in Korea.  It is just down the street from my apartment.
Vet centers?  I just checked and there is one within 2 miles of my house back home.

I was thinking about it sorta like a support group.  Places to meet, that are full of other guys have been through it too.  People who won’t judge us.  People who we feel have a common understanding of our experiences.   Especially the Vietnam Vets, they have been doing it much longer than us.  They must have found methods to adjusting and for some reason I always imagine it sucking for them so much more…..(I know you can’t compare wars, but I have to admit I really wouldn’t look forward to a walk through the jungle.)

I’m actually very curious to see how many of our generation are getting into organizations like these, and what their experiences are.

VFW Post 10033, you may be seeing me soon.



This Memorial Day, I won’t just be remembering the fallen and thanking the heroes, I will be in the company of some of the nations strongest. I am going to be taking part in the Capital of Texas triathlon, whats more is that it is this year’s wounded warrior sports project triathlon. There will be Wounded Warriors and active duty service members and I am assuming a ton of veterans. I am not trying to boast but I am trying to give perspective, my first triathlon handed me my A#$ on a platter. It kicked my butt so bad I wanted to yack from start to finish. I am not wounded physically and I found it incredibly difficult. Some of the veterans that will be taking part in this race will have lost their arms or legs. They will not expect special treatment and in fact that special treatment is the exact reason they are out there, to prove they neither need nor want it. They are a testament to internal fortitude and resilience. They are an example to all of us that regardless of the scars and wounds life goes on. So if you are in the Austin, Tx area drop by auditorium shores on memorial day @ 7, 9, or 10 am to catch the Wounded Warriors start their battle for the day. I believe that you will leave with a greater appreciation for the warrior spirit and the ability to heal even when parts of you are gone forever.

So what does this tell us about PTSD? That it too shall fall to the wayside when the human will and spirit come to full bear. That no matter the trauma you saw, if the will drives it the mind and body will follow. Not feeling all this metaphysical well-being stuff? How about hard evidence? Neuroplasticity, the way your brain creates neural pathways, its called a lot of thing like muscle memory or recall. I think of it as a road building. The more you consciously focus on something more direct the pathway becomes, going from a dirt path to a 4 lane highway. So by applying the will and focus to get over the things that go bump in the night, the more you will see results. Mind over matter. That is what you can learn from the Wounded Warriors, they have lost a limb or are disabled in some way and yet, they are taking on a challenge that even the most physically fit and capable find very difficult. So when facing PTSD you realize that it is not that you are strong enough or smart enough to beat it but that you refuse to fail. My motto for this TRI is “Death Before DNF” (DNF- is tri speak for did not finish). So this Memorial Day, remember the fallen, thank a hero, and find strength in the fact that your will can not be broken.

Check out the wounded warrior project at:

And this is the Triathlon’s website: